Love... is it?

All these nights gone looking for what? not a new life, i really love this one. new love? yes, love. but where is love?
I want love. i want to love you, heck i want to fall in love with you. you don't have to love me back. but i want to have a reason to smile that nobody knows about. i want to feel young and beautiful and i want you to think i am beautiful and special and absolutely wonderful.

I want to be your heart's desire. and i want to be your dream. you can be mine, too. in fact, i insist on it. let's sit outside together on warm nights and look at the stars and drink wine. maybe we could kiss. make out. long beautiful wish they could lead to more type kisses. but let's never let it get any farther than kisses.

Because if we do, then, for some reason...the magic is gone.

But maybe, if you are my heart's true love.. it would be only the beginning of the magic.

Do you see how confusing this all is? and i am 30 years old. time is going by so quickly i don't even realize how old i am sometimes.

Where are you? I really can't wait any longer.

Only if i knew the way...

scarletbegonias